Episode 105: thoughts on the invisible line

let's play word association!
People _____.
that's right, MEAN. if you didnt get it right, that's fine, i was looking for
something closer to that, if not, well, you should know by now.

final's over and everything, glad that school's out for the next week, and a brand new term coming at me! i had a lot of fun making board games and card games this term. i thought it was awsome that we can finally unleash our creativity. although most of us, like me, dont have any. but it's okay
so i guess ive finally done something that's along the line of where i wished to be two years ago, making games. funny how the reason why i joined the art community was because i only wanted to paint pretty pictures, then later i think i dugged up a greater passion...

now refering back to the word association we just played in the beginning. before i start anything, i gotta say. now i dont hold grudge against people, not most of the people. *of course there're some people that i really feel like i gotta liu-kang their ass, but that's another story*. i only write this because i disagree with the way how they see things. now if you find this not acceptable, well... there's nothing i can do, so, if you dont have an open mind, leave. remember, im not flaming anyone today, not putting blames, just stating i disagree.

ive met a few people who're engaged, friends, co-workers, classmates, or just people from different contacts. most of them are pretty awsome. i happen to come across some cases where i totally disagree with the way how that person reacts to their engagement.
to me, although im far from it, perhaps never will be (no kidding), but being engaged to someone is big. even the fact that if i have a girlfriend, the good old habit of "hey dude, check out that ass" is out of the window. (now a lot of you are probably thinking, yea, he's just all talk, but i did went there, least i wasnt looking when i had a 'girlfriend')
just to be fair, let's say, ive met several people who're engaged to their fiances, but just couldnt stop flirting...
im not saying flirting is bad, it's okay to flirt, we've all done that, joke around, poke holes, make fun of each other. but when you flirt up the storm behind your fiances. i, myself, can only feel - disgusted.
you know, if im your fiance, and if i happen to know what you're doing to the people around you behind me, i'd seriously want to sit down and have a talk with you. call me obsessive, call me strict, call me anything but, damn, this seems to me like a problem.

yea, i guess im a traditionalist, none of that free spirit. but probably because of what happened to my dad when i was a kid that really made me stay true to traditions and be one conservative whore on this subject. but i think, when you're in a relationship (oh here we go, the dude who doesnt know shit is talking again!), there's a certain limit, or an invisible line that dictates how far you can go with your friends and the people around you. to me, hugs are cool, high five is fine, casual joking is cool too, but sometimes, you witness an event and you turn around and ask yourself,
"damn, you can do that? that's... too much..."

now i know everyone needs love, attention. we loved to be praised, cuz it makes us feel good. but my thoughts on "how much is too much" is obviously biased. i dont know, perhaps you can tell me how you feel about it.
to tell you the truth, i feel horrible for their fiances
yea, maybe im just sourgraping, you know it, im probably jealous of how some people gets love and everything. yea whatever, but i hope, that whoever is reading this, will have to realize the above is my opinion and my opinion only. i am allowed to say what i want to say, right?

you know when people tell you, "that's just life man! im sure when we're all 70 years old, when our teeth all fell off, we'd just be sitting around joking about how silly it is that we get pissed off about these kind of thing at our 20s."
fuck that, you think you're gonna get away with it?

i dont think so.